Our Trying To Conceive Journey

If you have been following me on Tiktok, I recently shared our story about TTC. For those who don’t know, TTC means trying to conceive. A year ago, Dan and I had decided that it was time to start trying. I was so excited because I wanted kids for so long and I was just waiting until Dan felt like he was ready. Two of my other friends has also started trying around the same time and I was so excited at the possibility of being pregnant with them as well as being able to raise our babies somewhat together.

I started with the basics during our first month. I knew my ovulation window from the app I had used for years and made sure we did the deed within that time frame. My period came a few weeks later and I was sad but still optimistic. Hey, it was our first official month of trying. The second month came and once again it didn’t happen. By the third month I had purchased ovulation test from CVS that would give me a smiley face for ovulation. I did that for 2 months before I purchased the ones from amazon where I could test twice a day for ovulation and make sure I am getting my peak.

Let me back track by saying that I have never been on birth control in my life. I also have regular periods that come right on time as well. So I was very confused, frustrated, and sad that it was happening for us when my whole reproductive system seemed okay. I ended up going to my OBGYN around the 6th month to kind of talk about what was going on and also see if she could run some test. She did mention that it could take couples as long as a year to conceive.

I went back for my bloodwork results and ultrasound. My blood work looked great and so did my ovaries. She told me to keep tracking my ovulation and she would see me after a year. For someone who’s impatient like me, it wasn’t what wanted to hear. I wanted an answer for why this was happening. I was doing everything by the book. I worked out daily, ate healthy-ish, took the right vitamins, and of course had sex when I was supposed too.

I continued trying each month, tracking ovulation, praying, and of course testing. Every month has been negative. Some months I swear my eyes deceived me and I thought I had seen a faint second line. I had confused my pre-menstrual symptoms for early pregnancy symptoms. That’s what really broke my heart each month when I would get my negative. I had spent the past few days thinking the cramps, nausea were all pregnancy related when in reality it was just good ol mother nature.

Ill spare you the rest of my story but I finally made the call in October for an appointment with a fertility specialist. Our appointment is today at 11am. I have so many questions to ask. I am feeling anxious, helpless and hopeful at the same time, scared, and so many other mixed emotions. I am hoping that today, we could get the answers to some questions that have looming in my mind the past few months.

If anyone has gone or is going through the same or similar situations, let me know! I’d love to hear what questions I should be asking or what to expect. Keep Dan and I in your prayers as we tackle this small bump in starting our own family. God’s timing is always perfect.